FAMILY since mum's obnoxious and takes things so lightly, mocking my sis's respond to alter call, suspecting every guy i msn/text with, even my cell leader while ignorant about how they really are. dad just works the whole week. not his fault though. not that i want him to spend more time with the family too. just sick of my jobless mum ordering us to do things the whole day. well this home is not a home. it's just an incomplete picture. when did we last laugh together? none of us can remember that. this is not called home. i just love my dog.
after parade this saturday tifflin offered to give me a ride home. i tentatively turned her down as it's impolite but in the end i did. they werent so rich to own a nice car. it was a simple old van. but. i felt this inner peace and joy erupting inside me when i saw how the familly conversed.. .tifflin's grandparents and mother spoke to each other lovingly, and even when they spoke in hokkien and seemed a bit hostile,(the way hokkien is spoken), i could tell the sentences were embedded with care and concern. her dad was MIA-ing but they were complete. that is what i call a complete family. for the rest of the quite long journey to church i felt like one of them. i wished i was tifflin's sister.
what im trying to say is my family aint very nice.my mother only objects to my requests and complains at all times. she aint nothing but that. if it's like that then i dont need my mum. nor is she a love provider- not that i want her to care about me. that's ewww. plus my dad who pretends to know us. (me and my sis) but he doesnt. he is just and extra appendage attached to this family for no rhyme or reason. my parents just piss me off alot.
but you see i just wanna be like tifflin's family. i know most families have their own problem. so if you are the rebellious, emo one who is too dignified to show your family this precious care and concern. would you please loosen up. treasure your family.
and mostly dun bother to give me words of encouragement. it aint gonna help.
